As I type my blog I think to myself why am I not like more of my friends. They have this thick skin when it comes to men and relationships. They are able to treat them like they don't matter to them, they don't compliment them or tell them how special they are to them or do nice things for them, unless it's a special moment. As, for me I am nice to my man, help him out, say nice things to them, cook, supportive and yet they take me for granted. It's not in me to be mean or I always say the truth or show my gratitude to my mate. I am at a crossroads and I pray daily and normally I always take at least a year or two to be alone and get my heart and myself back in shape mentally and emotionally. This time I decided to go against my better judgment and try something new. I tried my hand at getting to know a guy or letting what happens happen and he decided to be a complete ass to me and a jerk. Now, if a man is a jerk or asshole to you in the beginning then that means that they will be one to you in the middle and in the end. He really surprised me and it made me feel a way that I have never felt before. I am confused and I am never confused about my feelings and hate is a strong word, but I feel a great dislike for him and I can not respect a person who lies, or who is an asshole or a jerk. It's funny, I never did anything to him and in the beginning he was so nice to me! I would ask how his day was, or what was up and he was just a complete jerk to me. So, I guess I should be mean to him now and treat him the way he has treated me. I'm unsure of how to do that, because that is not me. But, this once it will be me and I can live with that. Randomly Yours, Raven Storm
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