When Your Afraid To Fall In Love!

What is it about being in love or falling in love that makes us go crazy or say and do some of the stupidest things! I mean when you meet the person that makes you smile uncontrollably, they make you nervous, and crazy all at the same time. I mean you find yourself smiling and thinking about them out of the blue or you have the best dream about you and them together! It's like waking up on Christmas Day and getting all the presents on your list. Being in love is one of the best feelings their is and it puts you in this place where nothing or no one can make you feel bad or sad about yourself or your life, because you have that special someone in your corner. But, when that love is taken away and your heart is broken by that special someone you start to build walls around your heart and yourself. You no longer trust and you feel ashamed and hurt by love! You wanna let someone in again and you wanna start giving of yourself and your heart, but your thinking in the back of your mind are they going to use me like the last, cheat on me like the last, hurt my heart and spirit like the last love. At this point your so afraid to love or trust love again that you shut yourself off or tell yourself I don't need anyone, I have my friends, my kids, my hobbies, my work, and I got the good book, so I don't need anyone in my life. That would be a lie, and a bad one at that. No one wants to be hurt or shaken by love, but it does happen and it's hard to let love back into your heart and to not think that it will tear you apart again. I should know, I have had it happen to me and I don't trust, I am scared a lot that it will happen again and I have so much love to give, but I want it to go to the right person. Someone who will appreciate me and the way I love them, care for them, stand by them, listen to them, be supportive of them, and just knowing that I am there good or bad times. Knowing that this person loves me and only me and is there for me in the same ways I am for them. That they shower me with their love, surprise me, cater to me, listen to my needs, share in my success's and support my changes what ever they may be. I know in my heart that their is someone out their who will give me this and more, I just have to let love in and except what comes next! Let go and let God. Randomly Yours, Raven Storm